Hello Autumn and a Year Gone By

I finally woke up this morning and realized it was fall. I'm not sure why it hit me today, but it did. I think it was because when I looked out my window and saw that my trees in the backyard are completely bare. No colorful leaves decorating there branches anymore. Not even dead leaves hanging up there. Just bare, cold looking branches framing my bedroom window. It feels like winter already.

I think the reason it shocked me so much though is because this year has gone by so fast. I can't believe I'm a senior, can't believe that my final cross-country season is over. Can't believe I'm so close to going to college and I still have no clue as to where I'm going in life. All these years of thinking I wanted to be a journalist and it all changes. It's scary to realize that I don't have the complete and total control I wish I had over my life. It's time I really put my trust in God.
I was reading my journal earlier today, the very beginning of it that I started back in July of 2006. I was shocked by what I read. I knew I had changed and grown within the past year and a half, but it was reading my emotions, seeing my true, honest feelings in words on those pages that really made me realize how different I am. And just how much I've grown in over a year! To make it short, my world seemed flip-flopped. I really liked this guy who didn't turn out who I thought he was, and I hated cross-country. If you personally know me, you'd be shocked to see what I wrote. And what's so amazing about it was at the time I was writing about how I didn't know what God had in store for me, but I was trusting Him anyway. Now I realize just how much God had control over my life. I thought life was awesome back then, it's only improved by like 100%! Seriously, I am so blessed to be living the life I am. Even if it means that I'm single, or that I don't know what college I'm going to, and so on. I'm just going to put my trust in God again, and I know He's going to take me down the right path. And you can bet I'm going to blog about it the entire way :)